Day 2: October 1st - And I've Got the Bitch Cold....Booo

Day 2:

9:21 a.m.: Well, yesterday went well. I was actually sore from my workout yesterday evening! I get stoked about the post-workout soreness because I'm an un-diagnosed sadomasochist. It helped clear my cold up a little as well but today my head feels like snot is going to burst forth from my sinuses and make a disgusting mess that I may be happy not to be alive to have to clean up.
I am a huge asshole when I get any form of sick.
However, that did not deter me from my morning smoothie; but the look of it sure almost did. That and the fact berry seeds do not blend well and I mistake them for peanuts and then get a little gag when I can't easily chew them up. Smoothies always look so pretty on the websites! I think I need a new blender.
This morning I had a kale-banana-peanut butter-berry-almond milk smoothie. I should have added the kefir, that may have tasted a bit better. Actually, it didn't taste bad - I'm just a big texture person and if the texture's off, then my gag reflex kicks it into hyper-drive and makes it extremely difficult to get through anything, even if the flavor's good!
But I did it! I....did it. And now I want sugar. Uh-oh.....

9:56 a.m.: I caved and ate a chocolate & peanut butter chip granola bar. Only 100 calories and mostly sugar alcohols so phew (that's partially sarcastic; sugar alcohols, I do not trust).

10:27 a.m.: In a partial effort to combat the cold, I am now munching smokehouse almonds. Goddammit these are good!

11:03 a.m.: Almost lunch time! I am going to eat enough kale today to fight off any disease that may be dormant or ready to pounce! Except this fucking cold - it's a strong one. I am also realizing that if I listen to my body, the green coffee bean extracts I've been taking really do curb my appetite. I just have to not eat through them.

12:19 p.m.: Just had my kale salad (ahhh....) and a bit of peanuts. I put some cheese on top of my salad but just ate it off. I think I'm craving protein? I always am.

1:17 p.m.: I'm noticing a pattern here. Every hour, almost on the hour. Argh....I am eating like I don't have the most sedentary job in the world. I haven't eaten yet - but I'm hearing the call of the reduced fat generic wheat thin.

1:42 p.m.: Jake is under the impression that rather than exercise, I should rest. I am under the impression he should shut it.

2:33 p.m.:  I lied. I think Jake was right. I'm taking it easy this evening. But I won't admit that to him!


And on that note.....I'm ending this entry. All in all, not a bad day. The smoothie thing will get easier. I think it just takes experimentation and a willingness to have to chug the not-so-great ones. I like that I'm actually getting fruit! It's a goddamn miracle! At this rate I'm sure I'll be fittin' into those red skinny jeans I have tucked away for a skinny day!

IMPORTANT NOTE: I do not want to promote unhealthy body image. I feel uncomfortable in my skin, that is why I am on this quest. I am using this journaling as a way to keep myself in check. If you feel unhealthy and want to make a physical change for yourself, that is your choice. I do not, however, support eating disorders as a way to do so. I used to give into anorexia and bulemia and it's still hard, to this day, not to fall back into old habits. But those habits don't give you the results you really want. They give you painful, disoriented results. They get you pity, not health. They don't give your brain fuel and they destroy your essence. Please, if you have problems in these areas, contact someone! Your doctor, a help line - there are so many options. Just please, be happy and be healthy!

Day 1: September 30th.

Weight: I can only imagine I've done nothing but climbed up, up, up on the obesity scale! So I'm penning myself in at a solid 200 lbs.

Day 1: 

 So far, I've made it through breakfast and early morning yoga. Short. 15 minutes. Because when you've discovered a love of sleep after 30 years of fighting it off like it's a cancer, waking up at 5 a.m. is insulting. 

 Luckily, there are 15 minute yoga videos on youtube that aren't a complete joke. 

 To top off my healthy kick to the morning (eventually), I had my first of several smoothies for the week. Kale, mixed berries, keifur (because have you tried drinking it? HAVE you? I'm dry heaving thinking about it), a banana and some almond milk. It made a lot and it was VERY good. Surprising since I used to have to add a ton of something sweet to gulp down a large, less-than-attractive looking smoothie. So onward and upward!

 Next stop - salad lunch!

c.8:30 a.m.; I got extremely nauseous and had to sit it out in the RR. My body is already very angry with me. 

9:44 a.m.: Waves of smaller nausea are coming and going. Luckily, not as intense. The inner toddler is quieting the fuck down!

11:15 a.m.: Lunch time! Yes! I'm having my salad but also some tomato bisque from the can of Amy's Organic Soups! I can't wait! Damn phone....

11:44 a.m.: I am eating lunch! Finally! And it is SO GOOD! I used some ranch dressing on my salad and some strawberry vinaigrette  and I know those have added sugars but it's a small step in that I can totally taste all the vegetables that make up the salad so hoorah! I forgot my yogurt so went ahead and had the whole can of soup which I will NOT regret! It is delicious! Amy....way to go!

3:30 p.m.: This is where I'll end. I'm going to go home. I'm going to work out. I'm going to eat a great dinner and I'm going to ignore the inevitable hunger pangs that will arise right before bedtime. SO, my only "slip" was a peanut butter/chocolate chip granola bar but only 100 calories so not the biggest slip I could have made! Hoorah! Tomorrow.....Day 2!

Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred: Day 1
 Yes, I'm starting over. I almost made it all the way through but since I was completely sabotaging any progress by eating my way through several workouts in one sitting, I decided 'starting over' would include this workout series.
 I....love...Jillian. I love her. She's a bad-ass. She's faced so much public scrutiny because, duh, she's famous and non-famous people will do almost anything to get famous. Including, but not limited to, denouncing the name of one of the biggest supports of healthy living I can think of. She's also ripped and hot as hell so that helps! No corny hair styles or unreasonable chalky-teeth grins in these workouts!
 I started again with Level 1 and I'm sweating, which is a great sign. It feels really nice considering I think I'm battling an early cold so a bit of sweat helps immensely!
 Okay, that's really it. It wasn't the hardest thing I've ever done and it won't be the hardest thing I do tomorrow. A-bientot (that's French; requires an accent bracket-mark above the 'o'; just deal)!